PART 1
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Is it philiphobia? Is it simple monophobia? Is it a fear of being hurt again? Fear of committing to someone again? Fear of putting all emotions out in the open for someone to see? Fear of taking that next step? Or is it just me thinking too much about things as always? Is it something totally unrelated to what i think it is? Do i actually maybe enjoy things the way they are but don’t realise it? Am i scared of change? I honestly don’t know. But whatever it is, it’s fucking annoying.
MP3: Incubus – Pardon Me
MP3: Ryan Adams – Dear Chicago
“I want to think someone’s beautiful, that they’re so beautiful it’s a thrill to be near them. Fill my stomach with butterflies, have me floating on air, bring something out of me i didn’t know was there. But it’s such a torturous thing that i am not excited by anyone.”
PART 2
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Then of course there’s the flip side…
MP3: Secret Machines – Alone, Jealous and Stoned
MP3: The Coral – Dreaming of You
PART 3
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The realisation and maybe the hope..
MP3: Chemical Brothers – Alive Alone
A heaven, a gateway, a hope
Just like a feeling I need, it’s no joke
And though it hurts me to treat you this way
Betrayed by words, I’d never heard, too hard to say
Up, down, turn around
Please don’t let me hit the ground
Tonight I think I’ll walk alone
I’ll find my soul as I go home.
Each way I turn, I know I’ll always try
To break this circle that’s been placed around me
From time to time, I find I’ve lost some need
That was urgent to myself, I do believe
Up, down, turn around
Please don’t let me hit the ground
Tonight I think I’ll walk alone
I’ll find my soul as I go home.
Oh, you’ve got green eyes
Oh, you’ve got blue eyes
Oh, you’ve got grey eyes
Oh, you’ve got green eyes
Oh, you’ve got blue eyes
Oh, you’ve got grey eyes
And I’ve never seen anyone quite like you before
No, I’ve never met anyone quite like you before
Thoughts from above hit the people down below
People in this world, we have no place to go
Oh, it’s the last time
Oh, I’ve never met anyone quite like you before
“And i’m alive. And i’m alone. And i never wanted to be any of those.”
S.I.T Wolf X
