This is a two part post.
First off, as a few of my close friends and family will know, October is an annually difficult month for me, a lot of shit has happened in this particular month over recent years, say maybe from 2003 onwards. None more so than last October (2008) which was probably the hardest yet. I’m not going to go into details as this isn’t a therapy session afterall but those in the know will understand what i mean. It just seems to be a difficult 31 days in general.
I’m only half way through this October and i’ve already had a pretty shit few weeks. In the last fortnight i’ve succeeded in thinking too much about things from the past, present and future which has led to me embarassing/making a fool of myself, arguing with friends, taking frustrations out on friends and family and pretty much just moping around the house. I can’t seem to communicate properly even with my closest friends. Everything i say or try to say seems to get lost in translation (hence the title) so to speak, even now i can’t seem to spit out the right words of what i want to say about everything in general.
So here’s a few songs currently on Ipod rotation that i can relate to lyrically and musically at the moment..
“there are many things that i would like to say to you….”
MP3: Ryan Adams – Wonderwall
“when you’re in pieces, just follow the echo of my voice..”
MP3: IAMX – Spit It Out
“i’ve surrounded myself with doctors and deep thinkers..”
MP3: The Hold Steady – Stuck Between Stations
“i can’t wait till i get home to the pass the time in my room alone…”
Mp3: Blink 182 – Adams Song
“when you were here before, i couldn’t look you in the eye..”
MP3: Radiohead – Creep
“there’ll be no better day to save me..”
MP3: The Verve – Weeping Willow
“i’m so ugly, thats ok cos so are you..”
MP3: Nirvana – Lithium
“all the stupid lies i hide behind..”
VIDEO: Rilo Kiley – The Good That Won’t Come Out
BUT i’ve decided that i’m not gonna spend the rest of October just sitting about feeling sorry for myself. I’m going to start being positive about things…anyway there’s only another 16 days left till November comes! Then things will be back to normal….
The first positive came last night, i had a great time at The Big Pink, helped by the fact that my friends Gus, Luisa (http://littlenihilist.wordpress.com/) and Gordon were there. I know that they haven’t exactly been feeling amazing or having the best of times either recently so it was good for us all to go to the gig, have fun, have a wee talk about various things and drink too many White Russians (again). It was a really great night, Gus and myself had bought our tickets months ago but it was almost a spur of the moment thing for Luisa, Gordon and Paul to join us, they were hoping to head to King Tuts and just pay at the door….guess what? It had sold out! We were looking at another repeat of Temper Trap, they were gonna have to tout and beg their hearts out for a ticket. An hour or so passed, no joy, still no tickets, looked like Gus and i were going in alone and gonna have to just meet up with the other 3 in the bar afterwards. …no wait..”there’s the drummer from The Big Pink” i said as Akiko lit up her cigarette. Gordon, fuelled by a bottle of “wine” and a few milky vodka treats, then had the courage to go up to the tiny drummer and explain his love of Robbie Furze’s old band Panic DHH. Gordon was even wearing his 9 years old Panic DHH t-shirt as proof of his love! Anyways, the kind Akiko then disappeared inside for a few minutes and came back out with the best surprise possible. She had got Gordon plus 3 onto the guest list. With me and Gustav already having our tickets that meant that Gordon, Luisa and Paul could use the guestlist passes and still have a free space left over…you should’ve came afterall Chris! The gig itself was littered with quiet/loud moments reminiscent of feedback pioneers Jesus and Mary Chain (just as i had expected) and My Bloody Valentine. And afterwards i had the pleasure of meeting the Big Pink , i grabbed a 5 minute conversation with Robbie Furze (singer and guitarist) about our love for Sonic Youth, DFA and certain guitars. Then i managed to squeeze in a good chin wag with Milo Cordell (synths and general noise) about his fucking brilliant record label, Merok Records (http://www.myspace.com/merok) . Cordell is the man who found the Klaxons and Crystal Castles among many more and gave them their first big break. I managed to surprise him with my knowledge of a band called Salem. I asked him for a few tips on good bands from Merok that i might not know and he looked genuinely shocked (in a good way!) when i told him that i fucking love Salem, especially their dark and altogether slightly disturbing take on Bruce Springsteens “Streets of Philadelphia” which they’ve named “Brustreet” (get it checked out). Then after another 5 minute conversation with Robbie Furze about lyrics and chords it was off into the night to get some food then back to my bed to try and sleep off the oncoming hangover. All in all, a really good, if not very sweaty (King Tuts is a sweat-hole!) and warm evening for all involved.
VIDEO: The Big Pink – Velvet
And just a little extra video as a nod to friends…
“..our little group has always been and always will until the end…”
S.I.T Wolf X